Maybe it is just the heat, or maybe I feel this way cause I over eat, or do I eat because of the things I can’t defeat
How about just a treat, maybe I will fall standing on my feet, who am I kidding, recovery isn’t an easy feat
All this hard work, all this pain all the energy I could deplete
If I were to give in.
The heat is causing people to strip, shorts and pants barely hanging above the hip! Guys with sexy abs filling me with shame and my tummy size has only me to blame.
Should I diet? Or have one more bite? LCHF or run up a cliff, or maybe some sit-ups and push-ups.
I could go to the Gym, and hope not to lust over he and him. I could make my amends and give up the false pretence. Or I could do the pile of work that has been accumulating, that must be better than procrastinating.
I can’t live life the same way I did. I had a smile I had wit, I had patience my wife couldn’t get. I can’t get lean and pretend to be clean while having sex like a machine. I can’t binge eat and get fat on each treat and be unexplainably depressed I can’t keep lying and watch the time flying I can’t just live life the same way I did and all I feel like doing now is get another hit.