Have you heard of neuroplasticity? it is that promise that you can always rewire your brain. the trick is the old wiring doesn’t get removed when a new wiring is added. it is always there, ready to fire if triggered with the right set of circumstances.
yesterday I had so many thoughts going through my mind. addictive thoughts. I was trying so hard to work out how to act out and still be sober. ridiculous isn’t it. then it hit me, I hadn’t don’t any of my program work all day. of course, the old wiring kicked in. I got up and texted my sponsor and surrendered.
Today, I attended a meeting, did some step work, said my prayers and now doing my writing. singing a lullaby to my old wiring and giving a dose of caffeine to my new wiring.