SLAA is a 12 step program and today I completed Step 5.
Step five says: “Admitted to God, to ourselves and to another human being the exact nature of our wrongs.” When I first came to SLAA I had no idea what it means to do the steps. When I started learning about the steps I couldn’t think of anyone in my life that could be the “other human being” to whom I would admit the exact nature of my wrongs. I had not met my sponsor at the time.
Today I spent 8 hours on Skype with my sponsor, going through my inventory. My resentments, my sexual conduct, people I have harmed and my fears. It was painful and joyful, it had tears and laughter. it was the most rapid succession of emotions I experienced in such a short period of time.
Up until yesterday, I had no idea how it would turn out. I was just willing to do it the way it was meant to be done. I couldn’t ask for a better sponsor nor a better experience. I am grateful to God for showing me his love through this Awe-inspiring experience.